it had been quite sometime since i’ve actually checked on my friend’s account..i always open my friendster account but it didn’t even occur to me to check on the important things or people. they might think that i’ve forgotten them, but come to think of it, is it really me or is it them who had forgotten all about me? i miss quite a couple of them, and we haven’t seen each other for like decades… it might be because more than a month had already passed and i haven’t had the time to go back home..but where is home? is it around my family? or my friends? or is it home with just myself? i don’t know… all i know is that most of the times, when i’m around a few of them, it just feels like, should i really be there? or do they know i’m with them? or do they really want me around? maybe the time had long been gone, quite a few had been wasted..just the mere thought of not being around them makes me miss them so much but how do you expect to feel if the situation is that you are all gathered around but they don’t seem to want you around them?
those people who might think that i don’t remember them, well, you are wrong then, it’s just might be that i don’t feel much at ease knowing that i’ve been away for quite a time and coming back means knowing things that i didn’t know or not knowing those things at all.. secrets shouldn’t be kept, coz what would you feel when couple of persons around you are talking about something that you haven’t have the faintest idea of what they are really talking about…
i miss my family, i miss my friends, but above all, i miss my true self.. no boundaries, no secrets, no masks…
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